COYOTE BLOOD
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The Different Types of Forgiveness
And sometimes ya gotta forgive yourself
While other times ya gotta forgive the future...
For not turning out the way you planned,
For the dreams that shifted, the paths rerouted.
Sometimes ya gotta forgive the past,
For the weight it left on your shoulders,
For the words you can’t take back.
For not being enough, or being too much,
For moving too fast, or not fast enough.
Forgiveness isn’t always a gift you give—
Sometimes, it’s the only way to let go.
The Description of Wonder
Would describe
My vibe.
I wonder how Hemingway
Would describe me
Up close.
I wonder how Sylvia
Would describe
From afar.
I wonder how Breece pancake
Would describe
How I talk.
I wonder how Bukowski
Would describe
How I walk.
I wonder how Carson McCullers
Would describe
My environment.
I wonder how Hunter
Would describe
My cancer.
I wonder how Cheever
Would describe
My dreams.
I wonder how Vonnegut
Would describe
My changes.
I wonder how Phillis Wheatley
Would describe
My death.
Sloptimistic
Let's Cultivate Naïveté
Antigone
To Be “Successful” as a Copywriter
I must forget myself—
step outside my own frame,
see through borrowed eyes,
wear a stranger’s skin.
It’s a temporary shift,
but for a time, it’s real.
Like running, like meditating,
like speaking hard truths aloud,
it gets easier with practice.
Living has made it easier too.
With each year, I see more,
do more, feel more—
love in ways I once
couldn’t comprehend.
Experience carves empathy,
awareness expands perspective.
I learn to listen, to step aside,
to hold another’s wants as my own.
This, I think, is what Sugarman meant:
A copywriter is not just a writer,
but a collector of moments,
a seeker of truths,
a participant in life.
The Screen Faded to Black and the Movie Ended
I pressed EXIT.
The home screen blinked awake,
offering a million other stories,
each one waiting, each one ready.
“Oh, look,” Kelsey pointed.
I followed her hand.
"Where the Wild Things Are."
She smiled. “I was just reading that with Beau.”
“Wanna watch it with him tomorrow?”
“Let’s watch the trailer first.”
The boy, Max. The Wild Things.
Their world, vast and untamed.
The music swelled, the cuts quickened,
and between the chaos—
a quiet truth in white letters.
"Inside all of us..."
The trailer faded.
I hit rewind.
“Again?” Kelsey asked.
“Just that one part.”
Because inside all of us,
there is something untamed.
Something that reaches,
something that understands.
And in that moment,
watching words flicker across the screen,
I knew—
this was the work.
Not just mine, but everyone’s.
To see, to feel, to understand.
The Bulletin: A raw energy of collisions, crossovers, and reinventions
There's a lot to dive into
If you had let me...
I would have battled with you for our entire lives had you let me.
I would have done anything for you had you let me.
I would have been your shoulder to lean on forever if you had let me.
I would have journeyed with you to the end of time.
I would have kayaked any river or any lake.
Hiked any mountain.
Snorkeled every ocean.
Sang every song.
Talked to every stranger.
Until the rivers ran dry.
And the birds stopped singing.
Until the rocks turned to dust.
I would be by your side.
I would have battled with you through anything.
I would have done anything for you.
I would have followed you to the end of the world.
Drawing even if you’re not very good at it
When in doubt, step outside.
Let the sky stretch your mind,
let the wind shuffle your thoughts.
Change the scenery as often as you can.
Walk until the streets start to rhyme,
until the billboards blur into poetry.
When moving makes you tired, stay.
Stay until boredom bends into wonder,
until stillness cracks open something new.
A deli sandwich is a sacred ritual.
Paper crinkling, mustard biting,
the perfect ratio of bread to becoming.
And a new pair of $1 thrift store sunglasses?
That’s not just eyewear—
it’s a whole new version of you,
ready to outrun any crisis,
at least until sunset.
someone in boston keeps reading my blog
jackhammer attack
I know some punk rock poems
about grief and loss,
but I also know some hip-hop songs
about faith in the future,
and my brain is moshing between them,
thrashing in the pit of
do more, be more, fix everything now.
The rent is due,
the world is burning,
the doctor’s appointment got rescheduled,
I forgot to call my sister back,
the economy is collapsing (again?),
I should probably stretch more,
drink more water,
delete social media,
start journaling,
be better, be better, be better.
There’s a jackhammer attack to all of this,
a rapid-fire pounding of
wake up, check in, freak out, repeat.
Am I doing enough?
Am I making the right moves?
Is this what it means to live,
or just to survive?
And yet, in the middle of the noise,
life keeps slicing through—
the sun hitting just right on my morning coffee,
a stupid joke that makes me snort-laugh,
a song I forgot I loved coming through cheap speakers,
someone texting just because.
Maybe the world is a runaway train,
maybe I’m just hanging on,
but in the chaos,
there are these brief, cutting moments,
reminders that I am here,
I am alive,
and for now—
that’s enough.
Infinte Goose
Severed Attention
Thanks for the Solidarity, Dirks!
I am starting to think
it is not the best use of my time—
splitting myself between
this world and Lumon’s halls,
where the lights hum sterile
and everyone whispers of purpose.
I am starting to feel
like I am being forced to watch,
guided by unseen hands,
my friends and social media acting as my Kier,
nudging me ever forward,
as if they wrote my protocol in some break room decree.
I am finding myself
putting off watching,
stalling outside the door of the next episode,
until a friend asks if I am caught up—
until I must pretend,
like an innie at a conference room table,
that I belong here,
that I understand what is unfolding,
even as my mind drifts elsewhere,
wondering if I will ever escape.
A Hammer Coming to Terms with a Nailgun
which so often commingles bliss and doom.
In the four years since Kendra Jean,
I got tired of a few things:
the color blue, singing about sadness,
and shying away from the shadows.
and relationships borne of bonding
the process of pushing through
is like raising a glass to a toast