COYOTE BLOOD
poetry, art, mistakes, music, love, visions and everything...
What the actual fuck?
every worry is a bullet
Wisdom, like a cell, when the blind lead the way,
You’re the passenger in a runaway.
The road twists left, your hands feel bound,
A restless wheel pulling, never sound.
Death whispers, “Enough, one day you’ll know,”
Your faith’s a secret kept hidden below,
A pull like desire, a long slow burn,
As life’s heavy gears grind and turn.
Stuck in a box, in a race with no lane,
Trapped in the chase, both feet in the chains.
“Anger’s default,” they write in the sand—
Love’s learned slow, with a steady hand.
Life’s echoes, the humdrum we repeat,
You cast and wait, watching time deplete.
If there’s meaning, put your hands up high,
But can you hold it, or will it pass by?
Eyes that lock in thought-filled cages,
Love written down in yellowed pages,
The mirror cracks, the self takes flight,
In the silence that slips from night to light.
This isn’t a life; it’s a crafted line,
This isn’t revolt, it’s the lull of copywriting.
Stoic to tears, breaking free then bound,
Wrestling meaning from the empty sound.
The concrete’s heat, the grass so cool,
The future fades like a fading jewel.
Yet somewhere in these loops and wires,
Is a spark that never tires.
The new Bon Iver album
synonyms for save
can you think of today
if you knew you were going to die
tonight?
Hope as a Daily Practice, Joy as Rebellion
big evenings
we are not quite emperors
End of Oct
Happy Birthday, Kendra Jean.
I’ll quite often on these birthdays—
[or] on a magnificent Monday
while grocery shopping,
[or] on a random Friday while writing—
pick a bunch of roses up and tell myself
I’m buying them for them.
Their initial beauty is inspiring,
as red as rage,
blooming in shadows of my basket,
cut brief by grief.
As their petals fall,
I recall the poetic minutes
that make the moments
that make the memories.
Figure Skating Around the Elephant in the Room
Mixtapes are Forever
(or a playlist),
you know the process—
carefully choosing each track,
making sure the order flows just right,
thinking about how every song
will make the person feel when they hear it.
It’s a labor of love, and let’s be real, it’s personal.
You’re sharing the music that speaks to you,
hoping it’ll connect with someone else just as deeply.
Every time I hear Switzerland,
I think of you,
and I hope every time you hear it,
you think of me.
The muse is headed to a persistence of cormorants
tardigrade
under the weight
of my own nostalgia.
tell me everything is alright…
navigating the past,
is this what you call evolving?
The Algorithm of Autumn
September seems so long ago
Aside from the cancer, 8th grade Ryan is living his best life.
Psalm
“Life is moronic entropy controlled by no one
and that’s pretty much the full story.”
- Ellory Smith