In Colombian slang, "paila" means that a situation is bad, there's trouble...
Got a call from my oncologist today,
the CAT scan showed spots on my liver.
It could be nothing.
It could be something.
It could be cancer.
I am more scared
than last time,
but why?
After learning this,
I had to jump on a work call,
because, ya know, life continues,
doldrums and all.
On said work call,
Monica, who is a designer in Colombia
told us about this slang word, Paila,
and it just fit my feels.
So now,
on this morose Thursday morning,
I am just listening to sad music,
and repeating that word in my brain.
I know I should be positive,
tell myself it is nothing,
but I just want to close
this cancer chapter.
I am not ready to die,
but more so,
I do not want my daughter
to have to feel the pain
of a dead dad.
That is Paila.