perforce

I use a concert ticket as a bookmark
in a book I would love to send to her,
but I have sworn off any correspondence
with ex lovers when I got cancer again!

The concert ticket is from seeing Tokyo Police Club 
in Santa Ana, California
right after I was diagnosed with cancer
the first time.

The book is called The Love Affairs of Nathaniel P
and it is all about a writer with a conscience, 
something I have hidden
in my wasteband like a gun.