but I also believe in asking why,
yet I will gladly take a couple
more unexplained miracles.
I went from an epiphany on the F train
to being a dying dad in the blink of an eye,
poetic walks through record stores
to hospital beds.
In the grand scheme of things,
I feel so small,
but I have been preparing for this
my whole big existence.
I have six inches less of my colon,
but I have a lot more laughing to do...
at love, at addiction, at the universe,
now at death.
I hope that I am larger than life to someone,
but I don't know how to capture
the big bad my world,
only my little place in it.
Somewhere between Gandhi
and Ed Gein
is little ol' me,
and I am happy.