a tenebrous deal

I push
Over Pulaski
Get lost on the Brooklyn backstreets
Called it quits and called an Uber.

I drove 

myself crazy
Counting the ways she
Told me I should stay the night.

I chickened out

I feel so cruel I could cry

I feel like a bastard with a black eye

but I hope she knows this song is about her.

I just kept getting plastered
Trying to work up the nerve,

but I ended up

getting exactly what I deserve.

She changed my life

even though I couldn't 

change my ways

and now it's been another 4 years.