more than any cocktail
more than any Kendra.
I am a man who has everything
completely figured out,
and a man who is utterly uncomfortable
in his own skin.
I am a proud weirdo,
an ancillary asshole equally imbued
with legendary loser pathos.
I know what I want
but I am terrified of getting it,
because I will fumble
on the gamble.
Confidence is a killer
and I selfishly
want to be its victim.