I am overwhelmed

In terms of archetypes,
I want to be the rebel
or the lover,
but I am most likely
the orphan,
with the goal to belong
despite cynical flaws. 

I feel I am most authentic
when I am slightly tired,
in a goofy mood,
and a hoodie. 

My freak flag
is a napkin,
covered in Chinese food. 

Collecting flowers,
regarding existence,
while reading about 
Eloise in the Plaza.

I am inactively always trying
to be a better person,
a different archetype,
less overwhelmed,
more the mood of entering
Disney World. 

Everything we have seen,
everything we have done.

We are made by ourselves,
of ourselves,
and I get more knowledge (and hope)
from that fact.