the gossamer thread that connects us to certain people in our lives forever

I watch movies and study women’s faces. 

In Portrait of a Lady on Fire their clothes reflect 18th century fashions 
but their makeup looks so modern. 
Their under-eyes concealed, cheeks blemish-free. 
Like they’ve perfected the “no-makeup makeup” look.

Kate asks how I could have made it to thirty,
and I do not have an answer for her.