always arrows

“if pain doesn't lead to humility, you have wasted your suffering." 
-katerina stoykova klemer

the feel of plastic 
in my sweaty palms
is appalling to me,
especially if it is 
an iPhone case.

standing on the back porch,
making work calls,
hoping to see a bunny,
I hate the hot day
and the way my hands are wet 
with anti-anticipation. 

I ask her her middle name,
because I need a new muse,
and it will do for now,
until pow 
when I am struck.

lightning or arrows,
the foreseeable future,
grace me with something
cool and dry
that I can hold 
for longer than a summer.