worst week of life

maybe it's all in my heads. 
maybe I am just an idiot. 
perhaps I was just a dream. 
perhaps I'm incredulous.

I definitely die. 
I definitely lived. 

the devil has strong
days, too, 
with a seizure
in a casino. 

I remember.
happier times/lives.

writing on a cigar.
just...kinda sad/kinda happy.
listening to Devendra.
reading Sylvia.