Buyers’ Remorse

Do I matter?


Like really matter

in the grand scheme?


This question–

This feeling–

Eats away at me

on selfish Sunday nights.


Maybe I need to work out more.

Maybe I should stop smoking weed.

Definitely gotta log off social media forever.


I am terrified of death

Which makes me terrified of life

And so the ouroboros goes.


If I have it all

To do over again,

I wouldn’t change a thing.


Just return to the beginning,

Flash my mortal receipt,

Cash in my chips and go for another ride 

on the merry go round.