The Recreant Visage

in 2009,
I was wasted
and I was wasting time,
committing crimes
of the heart. 

From the Upper East Side
to East Willytowne,
which is just the West 'Wick,
I was stealing songs
from beautiful baristas
and ugly salsa dancers.

Looking back,
it was all a lack of love
rather than abundance,
which is what I wish I knew
back when, back then. 

Stairwell sex, middle names,
enjoy the regrets,
always taking blame, 
without shame,
but hey, 
that's being in your 20's,
right?

Right,
so now when I sit 
on a bench
near the crackheads
in Union Square,
I just think about a person who was lost,
and still not entirely found,
but coming around.