I go insane everday
just
so I can maintain...
cuz you got up at 4:45am to do 200 sad dad sit-ups
in a sweltering Florida garage
and then drank celery juice
cuz someone on IG said it is good for you.
cuz you have a hard rule that you never say no
when your daughter asks you to play Barbies
or put on a living room production of Chicago.
cuz in addition to your day job
you are writing a screenplay, a kids book
on top of the twelve books of poetry you have "in the works,"
while also producing a weekly podcast.
cuz you flew to NYC
just cuz you miss it and can't be away from it
for too long or you lose a piece of your dumb heart.
cuz you stayed up late laughing
at a new standup special
cuz life is for living,
cuz one day you're gonna die.
...I am a dancer
but
I can't dance.