death knell

I am still feeling
the thousand tiny cuts
that accompany young adulthood...

Now, in the land of dinosaurs,
I want to heal, not with an answer to a question 
but an exhale to an inhale.

Going forward,
I want my background blurred
like a Zoom marketing meeting.

With distinct intentionality,
the future is the focus,
with the present as the sharp tool used to carve it. 

On a track in life, 
and then the pause [COVID] made me
re-come to it as a choice, rather than a track.

Because we are all going to die,
but we can choose what happens
before that time.