Neptune Blues

Bruno Schulz: 
"A writer (my type of writer, anyway) 
is the most wretched creature on earth. 
He has to lie incessantly, has to represent as valid 
and real what is actually in a miserable state 
of disintegration and chaos within him."

I could never belong to a book club,
because I read too slow but I soak it in,
retain it longer than a nagging cough.

I have a wound the size of my youth
in my heart – I pull out my pocket knife –
everybody has a hunger and a haunt.

Fascinating:
I am in the mood to be fucked 
or enchanted,
because I miss the hang 
these suburbs are sterile 
and I run on inspiration or annihilation.