a lesson in shutting up

eating fajitas by yourself 
is no fun. 

the sizzle needs to be heard
amongst a herd of humans
who have chosen to eat a place 
like an airport Chili's as a sad last resort.

falling in love with a beautiful musician
that lives in the UK is no fun. 

ya never hear a poor person say
we are in the Matrix
while they are shitting;
it's always a well-off wonderboy
saying it at brunch. 

I am tired. 
Anxiety is exhausting. 

I am 40,
but if you adjust for COVID
I am only 37. 

Every single one of my worries
can be boiled down
to financial. 

sometimes, I turn
two poems into one, 
just because I am lazy
and lethargic,
and it's all relative anyways.

sometimes I want to scream
when I should be quiet. 

sometimes I am quiet
when I should scream.

sometimes I am sorry
when I shouldn't be.