That Being Sad

distracted today by being
a quick and dirty senior copywriter,
learning new notions,
discussing UX writing with the team,
I forgot to check today,
which feels good and sad,
because it was the first time 
in over a year I did not check her blog.
wild and freeing, but even moving on is sad
because you realize that part of you is gone,
and then, like a glutton chump, I miss the pain.