a living coyote is better than a dead lion

I was sleeping on a boat
in Marina Del Ray
when I woke to the news
of Tony Bourdain's suicide. 

My friend Daniel and I were
were fans of his for a long time,
often making sure people knew
we watched and read before them. 

He lived on the same street
as me in NYC,
and I would see him often
at the Duane Reade with his daughter. 

Though I watched his documentary 
on a flight yesterday,
I still cannot watch his show
for some misplaced mourn.