If life's a joke...then I'm dying laughing

working and writing and listening to St. Vincent, of course,
because I have had a lot of coffee and I already have an addictive personality;
just painting the black hole blacker.

mondays are still mine to shine,
like a doorknob I am about to open
to a room I have never viewed. 

desperation looks good on me,
because I have learned to wear it well
wherever I go. 

what do I share? 
what do I keep?

saving myself from what I want
one lover at a crime;
laughing with a mouth of blood
from a little spill I took. 

I can't see the future,
but I know it has big plans for me.