what if I were dying?

would you contact me then
if my insides were outside? 

if I were drowning in a canoe
in the East River,
would you text me something blue?

is this never forever
or just for now?

with your name scarred on my arm,
I bet we kiss again in the middle
of my murder.

this is not freedom from love;
it is prison from living.

if I don't make it another year,
know you were my forever love 
and temporary fear.