Feel v Low

I hate her the least.
The Yankees lost. 
Microwaving music. 
I am tired and low. 
Wearing a hoody. 
The chaos is calm. 
I don't know when.
Or how to stop caring. 
Hearing the hospital. 
Won't hear my own death.
Unless bullets.
Or her drowning. 
Poems are all we have. 
Earrings if I can find them. 
Could call California crime. 
I'd rather New York now. 
There's a last time for everything. 
It's okay to feel.