do I show up in your dreams? and if so, do I die in them?

courage in the backseat,
terror backstage.
I'll always be here if you need me,
but can you please kill me even
in dreams?

my day-planner is a machine
that needs to be cleaned.

I could be an addition
to your life,
if I wasn't
make it look like
accidental drowning.

there's a good chance
I'll join you tonight
when I close my eyes,
just give me a compass.