P: Chanhassen

my back hurts.
my heart burns.
some people spend their whole life looking.
so I guess I am lucky because I was found. 

in this tinsel town, we talk to god.
in this body, I kill myself. 
in this time, I can't see yesterland. 
in this cough, I can't catch my dreams. 

where do you see yourself in ten sleeps?
I can't wrap my head around a knock on the door. 
missing youth like a little kid.
I can hardly feel fifteen things before. 

it's a hard time for the universe. 
while your back is bleeding. 
I will stab you in the front. 
and hardly drown. 

you said.
when you met me.
you were bored. 
I was entirely the year 2009. 

even though I don't live in you. 
I still retire to commercials.
and the refuse of my body.
driven to leave forward.