how to stay content while complaining

please don't love me because
please don't love me because
please don't love me because
you're not through hating you.

goddamn autumn on instagram
has me like nonsense in never nouns
while walking around and cursing
at strangers for no reason but existing.

the knife in my heart didn't hurt at the start
but now it is rusted and stuck to my lungs
leaving me gasping for more
letting the song end.