Bring to Present Tense

so I guess I won't hear from you
for a while.
that's normal,
I guess.

you suck,
but I love you.
it's complicated
in my dumb heart.

have been "about to shower
& get ready"
for two morning hours now.

thought about this text/poem
for 28 years,
and still got the grammar wrong
in the end.

I am a high-falutin narcissist,
but without the ego
or confidence.

I need reassurance,
especially from you.