Mowing the Lawn in Hell

My problem
isn’t a problem
around sinners
and the self absorbed,
but sometimes I want
to kill myself twice this life.

I have no patience
for much of anything
especially dumb-dumbs
who announce the mountain,
and don’t love me because
you’re through hating you.

Flowers, cactus and birthday cards,
killer wake me up,
killer wake me up,
this is a story in which my eyes shut,
red cheeks, reincarnated.

I’m too tired 
to make you love me;
I’d rather you reject me
than just disappear.

I could be strong.
I could be wrong. 
I could be anything.