trying to pretend

I fight
no percentage of walking a dog
or needing a cigarette,
but maybe some eye contact
and a hug. 

these streets have too many names
and numbers,
we have not enough songs.

I fight
with my brain
to delay this sadness,
because life is good,
but suddenly the air smells sudden now.

I am used
to where the days go,
when all we did
was harmless
under heaven-touching high-rises. 

Searching for someone 
searching for me;
what happens after the headlines fade?

no more darkness,
hope you made mistakes
which lead you to me.

the trail truth follows
is a curse made up 
of all the things we crave.

I fight
not the scene
or the hopeless fireworks high in the sky,
but the mundane things
in between dreams and taking off my jeans.