on the table, on the house

my head explodes.
I used to be cool.
I used to be young.
are they the same?
who knows.

just at that moment.
the beautiful bartender.
puts a drink in front of me.
says on the house.
timing is everything. 

I love him.
should I tell him?
I sit in my reassurance.
cool is a state of mind.
I used to say this in Brooklyn.