I can't wait to be hit by a bus

hahahhaha,
shut me up,
I laugh in Los Angeles
while people don't understand
what anger is. 

not real anger,
just superficial 
leave-me-alone-for-now kinda anger. 

I feel like I'm in Brooklyn in 2012
with somewhere Suzanne next to me
and I not drunk enough to fall asleep
but not sleepy enough to get drunk.

so I just stare at the ceiling
and think of escape.