are you healed or distracted?

dear borrowed muse,
the line 
is gone.

empty poems,
powdered eggs,
juried by the past.

forces of nature
filled us 
full of mud. 

I am still numb
to love, 
trapped by memories 
of the future.

I let you down,
but I keep reaching out.

I need a little.

sleeping but walking,
performing but puking,
unwanted. 

trapse,
some other song.

dear borrowed muse,
do you still think about me
with more than just a laugh?