a heart the size of a fist the size of a fish

oh, freedom.
nah, tequila.

bloodworms today.
Coca-Cola.
sweater vest in september.
first time in forever.

she is still there.
but matters less.
in my veins.
much less pass.

I do the best I can.
present tense.
I bet Blaze Foley
did the same.

who says
we can't be happy,
sad, scared, and okay
at the same time?

heart my brain
and search through it.