storied hills in the darkness (But as “there” becomes “here")

Los Angeles has a sparkly sprawl 
that looks like a cosmopolitan cosmos.
So much territory, all of it lit up; 
how could you not find promise here?

and you’ve made it through the dawn, 
there’s no getting around it. 
Los Angeles is seedy, plastic, 
and impossible.

The abrasive sun 
casts a harsh clarity on Los Angeles, 
while its murky smog makes escape 
feel impossible.

hardly the beacon of virtue,
I find myself here every ten years
as a rickety remind that my
look at Los Angeles is not in the dark or from a distance.

I am here,
reading poetry to famous strangers,
sleeping on a boat,
brunching in West Hollywood, always day.