"So are you here to hear the truth?"

He is me.
He is in the living room, 
crooning his entrance: 
"Oh, my darling, oh, my darling, 
my darling Clementine. 
You are lost and gone forever, 
my darling Clementine."

I am him.
I still possess the fixating brown eyes 
that have toggled between dreamy and menacing,
becoming an expert on quaaludes like Hunter S. Thompson,
as Russell brings me a glass of vintage red wine. 
"It's full of betrayal."

Don't know where to go
or how loud to be,
but living feverishly,
I am amble enough

to kill lunch and lie to the night.