she doesn't read it (anymore)

this may be the saddest day of my life.

either google analytics are wrong,
which they very well could be,
or her IP address and location
hasn't accessed this dumb blog
in a minute or a lifetime. 

no blame, but it's a shame, 
and also I have to consider
the dreaded possibilities.

like maybe she is dead,
because how would I know,
what the hell?
I would have to contact her parents
just to make sure. 

in all likelihood,
she just stopped reading this,
poems about her;
three years on top of six
is a long time.

still, it makes me sad,
and I will check the google analytics tomorrow,
and the day after that and the day after that.
I will probably never give up.

at least I tried...that's more than I can say for her.